My Mother's Day Thought

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" ...be sure that I will never let you go, though

the whole world should turn from you. "

LOUISA MAY ALCOTT

I always knew that my mom loved her kids, but I never felt it so clearly for myself until that day, many years ago now, when my little trembling heart and I got a call at work to please come down to the boss's office. Yikes! I had an immediate knot in my stomach. I could not even fathom what I might have done wrong that would warrant a call to the 'principal's office', but it must be something, who gets a call for something good?

To be honest, I was a little in awe of my boss. Even though she had always been good to me, I had lurking fears that started during school days—the fear of being caught out a dummy and not measuring up to the teacher's standards—and it created a similar angst that my bosses would find out I was not as smart or knowledgeable as they had been led to believe when they hired me, and now that they'd found out, they'd have to let me go. Sounds quirky, but there it is....

So on that day, down the staircase, from the fifth floor to the third, I went slowly so as to compose myself. Wracking my brain and whispering a prayer for help, the thought came to me: If I have done something terrible to warrant reprimand, what's the worst thing they could do to me? In my mind, the worst thing was to be fired. In acknowledging that, strangely enough, I felt a sense of peacefulness wash over me. For in that split second, I knew even if I got fired my mom still loved me, and she'd be right there to help me pick up the pieces.  

Bolstered in my heart, I arrived at my boss's door. I was invited to come in and sit down. I waited. My boss was writing something on a slip of paper. She pushed it across the desk towards me, smiling as she did so. There was no word of reprimand. No, no. The slip of paper held the figure of my adjusted salary—I was getting a raise.

I left the office a relieved and happy young woman. Not just for the good news but, more importantly, because I saw so clearly that day no matter what, MY MOM would always be there for me. I never worried about getting fired ever again -- the fear of it was gone, gone, gone. And in its place was the rock solid knowledge of my mom's unconditional fierce 'mother bear' love for me....for all her kids.

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Now, that's my story; not everyone has or had a mom like that. But without belabouring the point, it is my wish and hopeful desire that there is at least one person in your life who loves you like that.

I have lived confidently in that beautiful love for sixty three years now, and for that I. AM. SO. GRATEFUL. My heart is full on this strange Mother's Day of 2020—it's the first time we won't be able to celebrate this special day in person.

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Dearest Mom,
The ribbons from your heart of love

have woven a haven around my heart.
Thank you.

Happy Mother's Day!

With all my heart,

Brenda

xox 

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